Dreams Can Come True

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This is BY FAR not what I imagined my life to be. Before I would complain to my “angel” about where I am in life and where I should be but today at 6 am I was lying in my bed (or what I’m using as a bed for now) and was thinking about my blessings.

I had two dreams:
I was going to be a single woman who ran a company. I was the CEO, lived in an upscale condo that was always very clean and I drove the latest Porsche. I had no kids, no pets basically no responsibilities outside of work. I would visit my sisters with their kids and bring gifts but I was to be so posh that they wouldn’t be allowed to touch my “Armani” skirt suits and of course I was the master of the heels game. I had long flowing hair, perfect body size and was wealthy. No issues. Well I can tell you  NONE of that came through….. At least not yet hahahaha.

Next dream:
I would get married to an Indian or white man and have some really pretty looking biracial babies(never had a number on how many kids). We would be well-off financially and live in a good size house with that white picket fence, maybe have a dog and still be very content. Well again that didn’t come through….

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Reality:
I’m a single mom of 3 kids with my last one (number 4) on the way. I live in a cramped 2 bedroom apartment that has a wish to keep being unorganized 80% of the time. We have a bearded dragon, 2 rabbits and 7 parrots included in our family. I drive a GMC Terrain and a very old Honda Civic. I have yet to find my career and right now I’m on E.I as I had to be put on sick leave. I started this blog hoping I could make it my career path but I don’t even make enough a month off of it to buy a loaf of bread. Worse of all, I lost my support system at the age of 32.

Dreams compared to Reality: Dream one!
I do run a company, I’m a CEO of a company – I’m the owner of “Parenting Parrots“. It may not have enough followers to generate an actual income yet but Rome wasn’t built-in a day.  I may not live in an actual condo that is very tidy but I have a roof over my head and I’m teaching these kids to make sure they clean up after themselves so the neatness will come back. I don’t drive a Porsche but my GMC has a rearview backup camera which is very “up to the times” hahaha. I’m not “posh”,  I don’t own Armani suits and I hate heels however I don’t think any of that was actually important. My hair is nice in its micro locks and my body size is perfect for me. Financially, I’m not as stable as I would like to be but one day at a time and things will get better.

Dream two Comparison!
I’m not married and I don’t see that in my future and none of my kids are biracial but they are some very beautiful kids (not to boost my own horn). They are intelligent and funny and keep me on my toes. I honestly couldn’t have asked for anything better. I will one day move into a house, I am determined to do that and I don’t need a white picket fence. Instead of a dog I have a house full of wonderful pets that love me and talk to me and push me to continue to do this blog.


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Dreams Can Come True!
When I was a little girl, I always wanted a parrot. I wanted my “Polly want a cracker?”  I never asked for one because I knew my parents couldn’t afford it and they were not pet people. They believe animals have no business in a house, they need to be kept free. The funny thing is when my dad would take me to his house in Jamaica, they had a BEAUTIFUL Beige colored Dog that stayed in the yard and my dad built his own outside aviary and had all types of birds in there. However they weren’t allowed in the house! HAHAHAHA. So all my life I secretly yearned for a parrot and I completely forgot about that when I got older. It wasn’t until my son started giving problems in school that I was told about getting a pet for him and that’s how Our Journey began. That journey, I spent SO MUCH money on pets, toys, cages etc… Brought me to where I am today, trying to educate others about the beauty, intelligence and joy that parrots can bring to an individual’s life.

This blog will one day gain the followers it needs to become profitable and it will be more than just a blog it will be a place of education, training and EVERYTHING PARROTS! I don’t know how but I took the “Living and Learning with Animals” Course and I GRADUATED!!!! I am so happy and I have now started training people who have issues with their parrots. It’s been a success so far and I’m making connections and I hope more and more people turn to me for advice and PARENTING PARROTS becomes a well-known and trusted name that people can believe in and only have great things to say about it!

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You see, if all my negatives didn’t happen or my dreams did come true – I may not be here today talking to you… I may not have come back to my true love and owned my very own parrot flock… I may not have realized that I have such a love for these animals it is completely amazing! And the best part is to see my son right alongside me learning and teaching about parrots when we go to train a family – it warms my heart. I know he will probably not follow in my path of being a parrot trainer but just to see his involvement right now is touching.

If you haven’t already found the button on this page either at the bottom or side that says follow parenting parrots yet then please do and join our growing family because without you “My dreams” can’t continue to come true. Also, sometimes in life, we focus too much on the negative and miss the “Blessings” and positives that are right before our eyes. Take a day out of every week to focus on the good and refresh your soul with your positives and move off of the negatives. Things like this are always easier said than done but trust me if I can do it then so can you! So, let’s do it together!

(All pictures in this post were from the internet)

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The Crying Mother

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The moment you realize you can no longer “protect” them. The moment it dawns on you that your child may not be like the average child. The one moment in your life where you can’t make reality go away and make the world sugar sweet for them anymore. For me, that time was today. It hurts, in my mind I feel like I’ve failed as a mother. In my mind, a child having a disorder like adhd is something I could have prevented. Maybe I didn’t eat enough healthy foods when pregnant, maybe I didn’t take my maternal tablets religiously everyday. I’m not sure where I went wrong all I know is I FEEL I WENT WRONG! This is not his fault, this is not anyone’s fault except my own but now my baby is the one who has to suffer for whatever mistake I made while raising him.

Agreeing to let the school assess my son was one of the hardest things I had to do. I didn’t want that on his file for the rest of his life especially IF I could curve his behavior for the better with nutrition and other stuff but let’s face it… If it was Autism or down syndrome it would be on his file, right? So how can I prevent it? Just because he is hyperactive doesn’t mean he is less smart than any other children in the classroom that is deemed “normal”. so why do I feel like I’ve just thrown my son under the bus by agreeing to this?? I got to keep my faith in God that this needs to be done, so they can better cater to his needs and I can be better educated.

I tried talking to friends and family about what’s happening with my son but come on… be real! We all have our own lives and our own problems, people can’t be bothered to hear me vent and cry about my frustrations as a mother dealing with a 7 year old boy. Believe me, I’m a good mom – My son is my world, there is no me without him but when I get frustrated and disappointment in things he does I feel like I’m the worst because I can’t reach him. I don’t know how to get through to him and show him what needs to be corrected so he can do better next time. It’s like I’ll talk to him but if he is put in the situation again a hour later he will react the same. Could it be that he is just hard of hearing or has he truly forgotten what I just said? Or better yet, did he tune me out the whole time?? He has a habit, when grown adults are talking to him seriously he will cover the side of his face and start smiling like he is dying to laugh and when you ask him “Whats so funny?”, his response is always…” Something is making me laugh but I don’t know what it is.” At first, I thought it was me, maybe the way I look or sound when I’m mad but he does it to everyone. You ask him why he made a specific choice and his answer is always “I don’t know”.

I just want to be able to reach him, teach him everything he needs to know to be successful in life but at times I feel like I’m dealing with a 4 year old instead of an almost 8 year old. He forgets the simplest things: brushing his teeth, closing his reptiles’ cages, house rules, putting away his Lego and cars. If I don’t check his bag everyday he will leave parts of his homework in there. My son is so intelligent, he is a brilliant 7 year old so I know I must have done something correctly. He understands things that I would never expect him to understand but it’s like he switches on and off. At school, the child they describe to me is a stranger to me. At home, I just always chalked things up to he’s just hard of hearing or forgetful but otherwise he is a great kid, I don’t have any real problems. IF you took school out of lives… We would have no issues but that’s not possible… is it???

I had turned to friends and family and spoke about sending him to a private school… of course I cant afford it but I was willing to accept donations or try to earn the money someway – all I got back was negativity.
Then I said okay, I will homeschool him – I got back negativity.

The sad thing about this is that no one understands the pain I’m going through because they don’t have a child like mine. I feel alone.  Your friends and family will tell you they are there for you but when push comes to shove, they run off the phone if they hear you drop a tear. It’s not fair, it’s not fair to parents and it’s not fair to kids that have special needs because let’s be honest, the school system does not cater to these children.

They want you to medicate your child if they are different. They don’t help make the family life any easier, they just make it worse. Why can’t the schools acknowledge that some kids do better one on one or in a smaller class setting and cater to those kids? Don’t sweep them under the carpet by pushing them into a behavioral classroom where they barely learn. That’s not helping my child, it’s causing more damage! Now I know that’s what private schools are for but lets be honest…. I’m a regular, one income household and I can’t afford to put my son in private school even though according to the public school system that is where he needs to be.

I would love to homeschool but I’m not a teacher… Can I really make sure my son would be on the same standards as a regular child in his grade would be? Then there is the income aspect… How will I be able to financially support the family?  So many questions and not enough answers. All I know is right now I sit here being The Crying Mother.

Thank you for listening….