This post is not only for my followers, viewers but also for my parrots. I had to take on two full-time jobs and because of that my family life, my pets, this blog and my YouTube channel was all neglected.
I thought 6 months isn’t long, no one would miss me. I also thought I would still be able to keep up with everything. False hope! Not being realistic with the fact that there is only 24 hours in a day and if I’m working 18 of those hours when would I have time to blog, videotape, edit and still spend quality time with everyone and let’s not forget to sleep? It’s just NOT possible.
One day something happened at one of my jobs that made me realize – This is not worth it! I started this website for a reason and my purpose was not being fulfilled. My kids were never seeing me, my parrots were changing for the worse and I was miserable even though the bills were being paid. So I said screw this – I love my kids, my pets and the people who take the time to read and comment and like my posts more than I love money. Yes, we all need money and hopefully one day my blogs/websites can be my full-time income however that will never happen if I’m not posting. If I’m not being a good example of parenting parrots. So I gave in my notice and as of July 7th I thought I would be back to having time for family, friends and you guys! The ones who keep me motivated to keep writing and posting. Then I ended up taking on another job which was only 4 days a week so I thought okay, better deal but still I was unrealistic. Finally I left both jobs, went on sick leave and thought okay NOW I’ll have time. That Friday my best friend died which I discuss in this post called The Passing of an Angel and I fell into a deep depression. Eventually I threw myself into my birds, taking on all these goals and tricks and things I wanted them to learn and instead of respecting them I was overwhelming them, jumping from one learning target to another and another basically trying to teach them like 20 new tricks at once – Not possible. My poor parrots. I was in a great depression and I neglected my whole family even my current pregnancy. This was neglect at its highest degree. I was posting but only as a means to take my mind off of the death I just experienced. I was hurting and hiding it which caused me to neglect the things I loved, my mind wasn’t right. We are now in 2018, I am taking my time with things. I stopped posting on Instagram for a minute and I’ve even taking a week break from interacting with the parrots and I’m slowly making a schedule for my kids. I’m not perfect but I took this week off to give everyone a break from me and for me to get my ish together for everyone.
With all that being said, I had to make some changes :(. They were for the best but definitely hurt me in the end. I will keep you posted in all that has occurred since my disappearance and I will let you know how I plan to rectify things. There are now some issues that have arisen with me and my parrots that I have never encountered before so I’ve been doing a lot of research and reading so we’ll see how it all goes but I’m hoping that this doesn’t discourage any one from following me and I hope to get more followers as time goes by and hopefully you can learn from my mistakes if nothing else.
Sorry for the neglect!